I have a new home... Well in a few weeks I will!

Yesterday I went and looked at a house in SF, the one in the blog below and now I will be moving there in a few weeks!
It's a green house with a orangeish door, the fully stocked kitchen is big and everything is communal. The backyard has a garden with tons of herbs and potatoes right now. There is a washer and dryer which is going to be soo nice considering I get dirty at work everyday. My room is upsatairs with 2 other people, it's a pretty decent size.
I met 3 out of 5 of my new roomates and they were awesome. I felt really comfortable, they were super welcoming. I met Meagan and the veg chef (can't remember his name, whoops!). They are a couple and are like the mom and dad of the house, which means they take care of a lot of the bills, and landlord crap. They were so friendly. I also met Jasmine who is probably going to be a good friend. She was making a super cute black and white dress for her finals while babysitting her best friends 7 year old who totally reminded me of Kylie :) She is from San Jose and knows some of the girls I used to work with. We played the name game. Kinda sucks considering I was trying to escape all those downtown SJ memorys but whatever! She also works at MAC and was telling me about vintage shops in the area, asking if I liked to go out and if I go to the gym. We both have 24 hour Fitness memberships and she said that her and the other guy roomates go on Saturdays. They were also telling me about how good the bus system was and which one goes where, maybe I'll remember eventually! Anyway I move in sometime next month, they are supposed to be emptying the room soon so I can move in slowly.
I couldn't be happier. It seems like this was the right choice because a lot of things are falling into place for me now.

Vacation o.v.e.r.

Well here I am 1,340 miles on my car later and about maybe $600-700 broker (after Coachella tickets, gas, food, and a shopping spree on Melrose!) and maybe 5 pounds heavier after all the eating we did! Really was amazing! I spent all of Friday and Saturday at Coachella completely sober! but at least I remember everything! I was very impressed with the whole event, there was tons of veg friendly food, I even got a fresh coconut! They set up a booth where if you recycled 10 empty bottles you got a free water! Chris was way into that.
The best part of the whole weekend was Portishead!! Of course! It was tragic and exhilarating, I was so in that moment and now I just want to go back.
We sold our tickets for Sunday so Chris and I spent the day eating! We started with these breakfast patties that I had made and brought, they were soo good (tempeh, vegan cheese, potatoes, herbs, breadcrumbs, shoyu, and maybe a few other things) then we went to Mother's to get vegan milkshakes, I had a Shamrock which could be compared to a grasshopper with oreo cookies blended up. OMG is all I could say with wide eyes! The we went to LA to Ameoba and I bought Kate Nash and Incubus Morning View, cause mine's scratched. Then we went to Bulan, where he and I first met!! Had amazing food but I was really full. Luckily we were on Melrose so we decided to walk it off because the sun felt so nice. What started as a walk ended as me spending so much money but damn I got a lot of stuff for my money. 3 dresses, a skirt, a sweater, 2 tops, a backpack, AND a super cute apron that he made me buy!! He was a very patient shopper and helpful too, even though I bought that dress he said looked like curtains. The lady gave me a discount, I had to!!
After that we drove far far away so I could meet his best friend and his wife. Tony and Sharon were really nice. Once he said Sharon reminded him of me, I could see that. Tony was not what I pictured to be Chris' best friend but I liked him! The next day I started my journey home but not before one last visit with Ash. I went to her work and visited some of her coworkers that I knew then had lunch at my new favorite, Veggie Grill. That was my vacation, pretty sad ride home, except Chris burned me CSS, the new Portishead and Baxter, which I probably listened to 5 times!

Thanks Chris and Ashley. I'll be back soon, I promise <3

An adventure today!

I'm going to Coachella!!
Don't be too jealous... Chris and I are going to be dying in 101 degrees all weekend!
Well I'm off, have a great weekend, I hope I do the same!

Pretty much drove half of California today

So DAMN I made it from Mountain View to Long Beach in exactly 6 hours!!!! Thats like 400 miles for those who don't know. Has to be the best experience driving here I've ever had! I remembered how much I fucking love Murder City Devils and realized Misfits are hard to listen to... I kept picturing David shaking his leg and bobbing his head and making me dance when we are sooo drunk together! It did make me laugh out loud a little :) Then I had the most interesting idea inspired by the sprig of rosemary I brought along for the ride while eating Barbara's No-Wheat Oatmeal Animal Crackers... I want to create Rosemary Oatmeal Scones or maybe Cookies, vegan of course!! Could be soooo good considering how much I love rosemary or taste like sweet dirt. Clark said it sounds wonderful... I'll find out soon! Then my phone died along the way so I walked in to a stark naked Ashley!! Haha sorry B! I swear I didn't see anything.
Now I'm off to get changed and hang out with the most wonderful person I know :)

Cauliflower Mash

Cauliflower
millet
yellow miso
shoyu
soy milk
nutritional yeast
thyme
garlic oil
maple syrup, just a touch
a splash of lime juice to round out the flavors

Think mashed potatoes but with cauliflower instead. I made it really yummy! Now that I think about it, I could have added some spicyness, maybe a little chipotle?!

best news I've heard all day

My insurance agent left me a message.
Had the accident claim been $90 more dollars the accident would go on my record and my insurance would have gone up. But it's not :) I'm feeling a little lucky right now.

April 21st reminds me

that I miss part of my old life today.

Anxious!!

Look what has been waitng in my email for me alll day!!

Hi Ashley,

My name is Meagan I am a 25 year old girl who was born and raised in San Francisco. I live in a five bedroom house in the Mission/ Bernal Hights area. We have a good sized bedroomavailable June 1, 2008.

Our house is a good size and includes a living room a large kitchen and a large backyard. ]

I understand you are a chef with is really cool because one of the roomates is a chef at Green's a vegaterian restraunt in San Francisco, he is 27. Other roomies include a newly 26/M year old who is a bartender, a 23/ F who works for MAC and finally a 32/M who works at a nearby cafe and also does woodworking.

If this sounds like a living situation you would like to be in please email.

Thank you,

Meagan

This sounds great :) Having another veg chef around to learn from and cook with would be so fun!

A sort of Loss of Innocence is how I feel

Change is hard, it's easy to feel lost.
Open the shades, today is the newest day.

Nothing Like Tomorrow

Vapor kiss memory of such longing
Whispered dream gone before the morning
Time is such a funny thing
It pulls you on like silly string
Oh the pain and sorrow
Never thought the haunting of
Such a temporary love
Could make me beg and borrow
Nothing like tomorrow
Nothing like tomorrow
Sugar sweet I won't forget the dawning
All alone smiles come throught the yawning
Love is such a funny thing
It pulls me on like silly string
Something like a good dream
If they find that I am lost
Point me to the nearest cross
Naked as a moonbeam
Nothing like tomorrow
Nothing like tomorrow
Nothing like tomorrow
Calling whispers sent to you at the speed of light
At the speed of light
Calling whispers sent to you at the speed of light
At the speed of light
Calling whispers sent to you at the speed of light
Nothing like tomorrow
Nothing like tomorrow
Nothing like tomorrow
There is nothing like tomorrow
Love is such a funny thing
Nothing like tomorrow
And I'm waiting for tomorrow
Nothing like tomorrow
Nothing like tomorrow

Supreme Beings of Leisure

My brilliant Idea to sell Vintage Clothing

Today I thought of a new goal! (when I have more time)
I am going to start an ebay store of vintage clothing. Seriously I could totally do it. And my stuff is way cuter than some of the other online overpriced vintage stores. I have accumulated so much stuff over the years plus I think it would be fun to model the stuff to sell it to people all over. From now on I'm not selling any vintage stuff to Black&Brown or Crossroads. My mom is going to love having all kinds of stuff left behind at her house. She actually said I should do it and that she'd go to the post office for me, everyday. She is overwhelmed by how much stuff I have but understands, she has just as much vintage knick knacks as I do shoes, clothes, purses, and jewelry!

My very own Blog

Now I can say whatever I want and no one will know! Haha
Just kidding this is the internet after all. And why write things down if you don't want people to read them. Well after a pretty damn unproducive day I find myself lonely. I was attempting to ignore the world in order to get some school work done. I'm a little annoyed by the fact that the world is ignoring me back. At least today it is.
I guess it's nice for a change. Lately I have felt like the center of attention and it takes some getting used to. In fact I'm not sure I want to get used to this feeling.
On I think Thursday this guy at work was talking to me in the elevator. He asked me a few questions about some guy I don't even know that apparently likes me. He continued to tell me that it's known that I "am the hottest girl at No Name Cafe" and that his cousin said he "was tired of hearing about this girl Ashley." He said his cousin didn't know who I was so he brought him by my cafe to check me out. WTF!
I didn't even know this had happened and honestly was kinda uncomfortable with him telling me this.
I don't think I am the hottest girl at No Name, Why does there even need to be A Hottest girl? Ridiculous. I know my kitchen is full of hormones and I am part of that but the thought of people that I don't even know being tired of hearing about me makes me stop and think. I have never been good at recieving attention. I always take it in the most negative way possible. Why is he tired of hearing about me? What have I done to make people talk about me? What are they saying? I don't like that sort of attention. I feel exposed. Has a lot to do with being fat as a kid, for sure. People who were fat kids know what I'm talking about. Such a thing has greatly influenced my entire life.
This is just an example of what things have been like for me lately. In a way attention is so nice but in a way it feels fake. There is nothing worse than getting close to someone and then realizing that just since you can't or won't be with him then you are no longer worth talking to in the same way. I don't like the idea of investing time in someone, giving the best part of yourself to them and then getting nothing back in return. It's one of the things I struggle with.
So I guess this blog is sort of my attempt to be more comfortable with attention. I have been and will be making a lot of changes and realize I want people around to experience it all with.